I think too much, that's all there is to it. Actually there's a lot more to it, but that's an accurate summary of who I am and how I work. My brain is noisy and non-stop. It can be exhausting. It can also be exhilarating. But it's mostly exhausting.
I've been this way since I was a little boy. I've never really been at peace with anything. My mind has always been someplace else. Never right here. But I've made it this far. Maybe it's because I don't know any other way. I don't want to think about it right now.
I'm currently what I'll call "grounded" for the next month or so. Let's just say I did something I shouldn't have and now I'm paying my dues. The whole long arm of the law thing. Long story for another blog. Too soon. What it all means is I'm going to be spending a lot of time at home on my own. Just what a guy with a noisy, non-stop brain needs - more flippin time to think.
So, I thought I would finally start a blog. I'm a writer. Been meaning to start a blog for a long time now. Never took the time to do it. Couldn't think of a topic. Couldn't think of a title. Thought to myself, no one will read it anyway, so why do it? Thought it would take too much time. Thought about the negative reactions I might get. Thought about the lack of reaction I might get. See where this is going?
Now I have nothing but time and hopefully nothing to lose. So here we go.
Here I will share the thoughts bouncing around up there. At times I might share too much. I tend to do that and I apologize in advance. Mostly to myself. Even if I don't get a single follower, I'm hoping the act of blogging will help turn the volume down a couple notches up there.
I think that's all for tonight. The effort it took to decide on the name and topic of this blog (which by the way I'm not totally settled on yet) has taken a toll. I'm tired.
Jason I feel your pain. I am going through probably one of the hardest times of my life. I can never shut off and now having this going on is going to be the death of me. I too have thought of starting a blog specifically on what I'm going through mainly in hopes someone else might be and they can help me through it. I hope this helps you!ReplyDelete
Hang in there. Life can be a real bitch now and then. The best we can do is learn from the tough times and try to live one day at a time. It sounds cliche, I know, but it's the best we can do. I've been through a lot over the last year and for the most part, it sucks. But I'm learning so much about who I am and what I'm capable of - and I'm thankful for that.
Let me know if there's anything I can do to help. I could help you start up your blog. I think it would be a great outlet for you and you're right, you might find others who are dealing with the same things. That's why I'm doing it - to find and help other people who think too much! Plus I like to write.
Great idea, I enjoy your thoughts and look forward to reading your blog.ReplyDelete